Missing you

Hello!

Good Tuesday to you!  It’s a beautiful spring day today here in Las Vegas, NV! (actually this photo isn't in Vegas, but It's Meredith here writing to you! haha)

I used to hate the desert, even though I am a native to it.  I fell in love with the desert when I went to Hawaii last year, I was eaten alive by mosquitoes and couldn’t really breathe due to the humidity. 

(my son took that photo from our condo in Kauai, how could I prefer desert over that? lol)

I never in my dreams would think that I would fall in love with the desert.  However, I know the desert, it’s familiar and I know how to stay cool, how to plant greenery etc.  I believe any place can be a lovely abode with the right set of eyes to look through.

Filter…you see as I write this blog, the word filter is always on my mind.  I understand there is an element of wisdom with using filter to some extent, otherwise why wouldn’t I write anonymously? Oh geez, I’m listening to Frank Sinatra radio on Pandora and the horns are a little too much, whew! That song is over…

I can be random and for sure be unrefined and raw, especially in writing. I mean who cares?  I’m not getting published, nor getting a grade or critique.

I would love a comment though…does anyone ever welcome a comment?  Negativity is something that takes courage to face, but what if my outlook is hopeful of a positive comment?

Now I am boring myself.  

I would like my writing to uplift people in some way.  How exactly is that done?  Just be myself? Am I uplifting in and of myself?  I would say Christ in me is, for sure.  He is the most inspiring encouraging person I know.  And he’s absolutely fascinating!  I get to know this!  I have had him in my life most of my life and never knew these things.

I would like to be the kind of person that is missed, when removed from people’s lives.  There are people I miss greatly that are no longer in my life.  I have always heard of other people say that, “not a day goes by where I don’t think of _______” whomever it may be.  I also would like to add, “not a day goes by where I don’t pray for _____”  Unless of course the person has died already, then I would be hopeful to meet again in heaven.  

Did you know pets are in heaven?  Now I sound like a 7 year old haha…but honestly, I believe that.  It’s not something to make me feel better.  I was perfectly fine before I knew this. 

Part of me can be quite calloused about death. I used to be fine letting go of pets or people etc.  But now that I know pets are in heaven, all the better!  I wonder why people have a harder time handling loss or letting go than others?  My question is, why do I miss some people and not others?  It doesn’t make sense to me.  I wish I had answers in this realm, to know why I miss some more than others.  Maybe I’ll ask God, I should ask him.  I’ll let you know what he tells me, when he decides to reveal that information.

For now I must go, this is me, in the raw..no editing no filtering, well maybe a tiny bit…but I am progressing with courage to move forward with this.  I make no apology for who I am today, for I may be a little different tomorrow.

Have a glorious day friends!

Introvert

Blogging isn't necessarily easy.

I find it easy to write everyday on a website called "750words" which I love, due to the fact that it is private.  It's the public factor that makes it so difficult to stay consistent from day to day.  

I once heard someone say that introverts are bored with everyday talk because they are more intimate people in nature and love to discuss the deeper things.  I have discover in the last year that I am more of an introvert. Many would argue that point, namely my family.  They would argue, "but Meredith, you're outgoing and loud and love to be seen etc etc...."  Upon learning more about what introverts are truly like, I identified more and more.  For instance, if you ask yourself the question, "where are you refreshed, or rejuvenated most? Is it when you are with people or by yourself?"  

I know people who gain more energy being around others and walk away "full".  However I walk away "full" after having been by myself.  Could we call this a true introvert trait?  Or is it a trait on a whole other realm besides introversion and extroversion? 

I am so curious about way too many things, or can there be too many?  It's a time thing, curiosity begs the question why? Which begs the question well...let's find out why?

I talked with a friend recently who started a recipie, kind of domestic blog and she was struggling with entries on her blog in conjunction with it being public.  I stated to her, just be you and don't worry about filter, people will love you for who you are.

What a ridiculous piece of advice, when I cannot even come to terms with that very issue myself.  I am a brave person, so I think and I would like to attempt to speak, write, post, blog without a filter, editing, etc.  So with that being said, this has been my first step.

Thanks for reading,

Meredith :)